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Whats
Wrong With This Picture?
by Lauren Gard
By
confronting societys greatest taboos,
Oakland
photographer Frank Cordelle has created
something
truly
extraordinary
It is close
to
midnight
on a crisp
Northern California
evening, the kind that renders East Coast transplants nostalgic
for the musty smell of dry leaves and the kick of hot apple cider.
Beneath a full moon, not far from a lawn dotted with a half-dozen
languid deer and a fat, skulking skunk, Frank Cordelle sits naked
in a hot tub.
It isn't his
first time at Lupin Lodge, a naturist resort nestled in the
redwoods of
Los Gatos
along Highway 17. The 63-year-old photographer exhibited his work
here once before, seven years earlier, and stayed for a few days
then. Cordelle wouldn't call himself a nudist, but as someone who
has spent the last twenty-some years focusing on naked girls and
women through his camera viewfinder, it's a state he's become
comfortable with. For the past month, a collection of his photos
has been on display in the homey wooden lodge down the hill, and
an hour ago he wrapped up a lecture with a small but dedicated
crowd and signed a few copies of his new book.
"So
your photos are in the same vein as, say, Jock Sturges?" asks
a middle-aged man who'd slipped into the tub with a female
companion. One of the two other men in the tub had caught the tail
end of Cordelle's lecture, and as often happens when his work is
nearby, the photographer finds himself holding court.
"Not at
all," Cordelle replies, his voice soft and a bit raspy. He's
used to the question. "Sturges' photographs are mostly of
beautiful, thin, white, blond girls, with a few others thrown in
for good measure."
"Mapplethorpe,
then?" Ah, the question that usually comes first.
"No." Cordelle shakes his head and explains that Robert
Mapplethorpe's focus was mostly on men, and was often homoerotic.
"My work is very different."
"Those
photos in the dining room, that's what he's talking about,"
the woman tells her partner. "I haven't had a chance to look
at them all, but there were essays, too, right?" she asks
Cordelle. "That the women wrote?"
"Most
of them," Cordelle says. "Some, I wrote about."
"There
was one there who'd had a mastectomy " she shudders.
Cordelle is
used to such reactions. The gist of his project, he explains, is
to document women of all ages as they truly are, from an infant at
the moment of birth through a centenarian in her last years. While
that may not sound so controversial, there's a reason Cordelle's
work shows at nudist resorts and colleges instead of museums, and
why he had such a hell of a time getting his book published.
His photos,
although profoundly moving to some viewers, come as a shock to
many, particularly when viewed out of context. Nude depictions of
children and seniors are by nature taboo in a culture rooted in
Puritanism. And most, although not all, of his subjects bear
physical or mental scars, or struggle with their body image. Some
are obese, anorexic, or bulimic. Some have been raped or abused.
Some are afflicted with disease, while others have inflicted pain
upon themselves. Desiree, nineteen, poses against a white
cinderblock wall, a massive T-shaped scar dominating her chest. A
year earlier, her uncle slashed her with a knife after she refused
to let him have sex with her any longer. Kerry, 41, sits in
profile, laughing, her unattached prosthetic legs resting beside
her on the couch. Durga, 66, was given a hysterectomy in a Harlem
hospital at age 31 without her consent. "Once, when the
exhibit was at a college, several students approached me and said,
'We don't see anyone like us represented here. You need to have
cutters,'" Cordelle recalls. He photographed one of the women
the very next day.
The
photographer patiently answers his tubmates' questions yes, he
gets written consent from the parents of minors; he shoots only
women because, quite frankly, he doesn't find men's bodies as
interesting, or as storied and shares some favorite anecdotes.
He's a gifted storyteller, and true to form, he loves to shock.
"One woman I photographed, her parents tried to get her
committed to a mental institution at age sixteen," he says.
"Do you know what her crime was?" They look at him
quizzically. "She wore a tank top to the mall without a
bra," he finishes.
They gasp,
cluck their tongues, splash gently as they shift in the water.
"Do you live around here?" the woman asks.
"Yes,
in Oakland," Cordelle says. "But I'm a country boy.
Moved here from New Hampshire for my work."
"Do you
miss it?" she says.
"I do.
After five years here I still feel like a fish out of water,"
Cordelle replies. "I used to see moose and deer in my
backyard, had a huge garden "
"What
do you mean, you moved here for your work?" one of the men
interjects.
"Everyone
back in New Hampshire looks just like me," Cordelle replies.
He pauses a
moment while they appear to consider this: Did he mean a fit
five-foot-eight with just a squidge of a belly? Confident and
handsome in a boyish, been-there, done-that sort of way?
"White. German, European descent,"
he clarifies after a beat. "I needed more diversity."
The first thing you notice about the photo of
Sylviaette Gamble Hill in Cordelle's book, Bodies and Souls: The
Century Project, is that the color white is practically absent.
Hill, then 46, stands rooted against a backdrop saturated with
color: bold yellow walls, a royal-blue door frame, rose-red
molding that cuts across the top of the photo. Her luminous
caramel-hued skin seems to glow. Her elbows are bent at the waist,
her arms extended forward, palms up. Like many of Cordelle's
subjects, she gazes steadily into the camera, but her expression
is a bit more arresting than most, her lips parted slightly as if
she's introducing herself to the world. In reality, she surmises a
decade later, the moment Cordelle snapped the shot she was
probably telling him how her mother used to half-complain, "Sylviaette,
you've got a mind of your own!" Hill's stock reply:
"Well, whose mind do you want me to have?"
Cordelle once bet a friend five bucks he'd
finish the Century Project in five years. It's a tale he shares in
the hot tub, and often repeats to new acquaintances, laughing each
time at this naοvetι. "At first, I would photograph any
woman who'd take her clothes off," he says. But he had no
idea how tough it would be to find the broad range of subjects he
would come to desire. Cordelle figures he's crisscrossed the
country a dozen times, easy, in his search of women to photograph.
Maybe two dozen.
He met Hill in 1996 during a jaunt to visit
college friends in Berkeley. She'd heard though a friend that a
photographer was seeking a middle-aged black woman, and thought
she might as well put her card in the hat. Hill met with Cordelle
to learn more about the project, and they clicked. "I could
sense his spirit, that his intentions were good," she
recalls. "He wasn't just some creep running around the world
looking at women."
She grins as she leans over a Starbucks table
near her home in Oakland's Grand Lake district, and studies her
image in the book for a brief moment. She says she wanted to take
part to show there's no way a woman "should" look.
"The important thing is for people to see that I'm really no
different from anyone else," Hall says. "We have such
shame about our bodies in this society. But if we didn't have a
body, what would we have?"
Before agreeing to participate, Hill
introduced the photographer to the man who is now her husband, as
well as her daughter, Mahogany Gamble, then sixteen. They, too,
felt comfortable with him so much so that the girl agreed to
be photographed as well. "I already had a lot of issues about
my body and my weight and I remember Frank talking about wanting
to change the image of what people think of as the average
woman," reflects Gamble, who is now 26.
She laughs as she recollects the experience,
which she remembers as nerve-racking. "I felt a little bit
embarrassed, and was kind of questioning, 'Is he going to judge
me? Are the people who read the book going to judge me? Is one of
my friends going to pick this up?"
Her discomfort doesn't show in the photograph
Cordelle chose. Gamble wears a broad smile and appears to be at
peace with herself, just as one might expect from a teenager who
would a decade later find herself managing editor of a Buddhist
magazine.
The one friend Gamble had confided in about
the shoot remarked that she must be crazy, but participating made
her feel less so. "Seeing all of the photos actually helped
me kind of realize the beauty of women in a way that I hadn't
before," she says. "Maybe not so much looking at my own
picture I think that brought up a lot of other things but
thinking about the project as a whole, and even seeing my mom's
pictures and going through the experience with her. I felt then,
and I still feel, the very real strength that women have. It gave
me a lot of confidence in myself."
Enough confidence, one hopes, that she'll no
longer worry if someone she knows sees her naked teenage self
circa 1996. Because they will if her mother has anything to do
with it. "Anyone who comes to the house will see the book,
because it's now on the coffee table," Hill announces.
Getting the book onto Hill's coffee table
proved far tougher than persuading women to take off their
clothes. Cordelle had decided, in the mid-'90s, that it was time
to find himself a publisher. A friend volunteered to help, but she
gave up after a string of rejections. Another friend then took
over, and also found it an impossible sell. "Pretty much
every major publisher of photography books in this country has
said no twice," Cordelle says. "Chronicle Books said no
to this three times. I went down and met with four or five women
editors, and by the time we left, two of them were kind of
watery-eyed. They were so emotional about the whole thing. Then
they said no."
He never received an explanation, but
Cordelle assumes his work was simply too controversial.
"That's just the way it's been," he says. "The kids
are a hot-button issue, especially since Barnes & Noble was
indicted down in Alabama for selling Jock Sturges books what
they called 'child porn.'"
He's referring to a 1998 incident where an
Alabama grand jury indicted the bookseller for child pornography
for carrying books by Sturges and another photographer. The case
was dismissed, but, Cordelle says, "the point was to fire a
warning shot across the bow to publishers. That this kind of thing
might cost you five figures in legal fees if you pursue it."
When he was turned down by a major New York
publisher who'd published the extremely controversial
Mapplethorpe, Cordelle knew he was really in trouble. But the
editor had said "a whole bunch of nice things about the
project," so Cordelle called her up and asked for her
reasoning. She admitted that she had a real problem with two of
the photos. Two? Cordelle puzzled over this. So it wasn't the
kids, then. It turned out that the photos in question were of
women whose legs happened to be spread apart. It seemed he
couldn't win. The editor didn't suggest removing them and going
ahead with the rest of the book not that he would have. Not a
chance.
Cordelle's luck changed in 1999 when Paul
Rapoport, then a music professor at McMaster University in
Ontario, Canada, attended a Century Project exhibit at a Naturist
Society gathering in Massachusetts. Rapoport was struck by the
powerful pairing of the images and stories, and invited Cordelle
to show his work at McMaster.
What Rapoport witnessed there was like
nothing he'd seen before. "My goodness, all kinds of things
happened," he says. "People were crying. One student
came across the sixteen-year-old, Katie, the anorexic, and was
just bawling her eyes out and then ran from the room. The next day
she came back with her parents and a couple of friends. That's the
kind of thing that has happened. People develop an intense
concentration. It's not unusual for someone
to take two to three hours going around the exhibit, reading
everything, and then going again."
Rapoport kept tabs on Cordelle, and joked
that he'd one day start his own publishing company so that he
could publish the Century Project. Ultimately, that's just what he
did. In 2002, Rapoport launched Heureka Productions, dedicated to
naturist titles. Bodies and Souls, officially released in
mid-November, is the company's fourth book. "You don't have
to be a big publisher with an office on Fifth Avenue to publish
this stuff," Cordelle points out. "It turned out to be a
much better deal for me than I could've gotten from a bigger
house. I picked all of the photos, and Paul wouldn't have changed
so much of a comma without my approval."
So far, Borders has ordered about a hundred
copies to place in its stores. Barnes & Noble still
cautious in the wake of the child porn fiasco, Cordelle says
has requested only one. Buyers can order it through any bookstore,
or from Amazon, but whether the average Joe will ever trip across
it is anyone's guess. "There's a hierarchy of the kinds of
images that have been deemed, and culturally constructed, as a
problem," Rapoport explains. "When you see some of the
images in the book, people who don't believe in examining things
within context get set off."
"I suppose they'll look at the book in
corporate, and decide from there," Cordelle adds, referring
to Barnes & Noble's single copy. "We don't know what will
happen."
The Lupin Lodge talk is Cordelle's first with
his book in hand. After a half-hour or so, he takes questions.
There aren't many. In contrast to his more mainstream and college
audiences, nudists don't bother asking whether a straight guy who
shoots so many pairs of breasts might spring the occasional
on-the-job erection. (It's a question Cordelle usually poses
himself and answers, in the negative as a way of letting
his audiences know that no question is off-limits.) Nor are they
surprised to see a cheerful twelve-year-old posing nude beside a
backyard tire swing, or dancing down a balance beam.
A woman in her early fifties with a dark bob
and a paisley red velour top clothed, like everyone else in
the chilly room raises her hand. "I'm Toni, and I was the
caretaker for Mary, the 94-year-old pictured over there." She
points to the far wall. "Taking part in this was a big thrill
for her."
Mary's photo, snapped in 1999, is always the
last in Cordelle's exhibit, which at Lupin contains 31 photos but
more often numbers 80. Mary had been a nudist for less than a year
when Cordelle photographed her in her San Leandro home in a
cherry-hued velvet armchair that matched her glittering gemstone
earrings.
Toni Angle had begun to explore nudism
shortly after Mary hired her, and to her surprise, Mary one day
asked if she could accompany Angle on a jaunt to Lupin or to The
Sequoians in Castro Valley.
"We'd sit in the shade, and she'd go
topless," Angle recalls in a phone interview a few days after
Cordelle's talk. "Mary had an incredible memory, and she'd
recite Shakespeare with a man there. He'd start it and she'd
finish it. She was such a lady!"
When a Lupin employee familiar with
Cordelle's project asked her if Mary might want to participate,
Angle says her employer was delighted. "I thought, 'What if
your family finds out? I'm going to get fired!'" Toni
recalls.
Mary, a lifelong Mormon, had no such qualms.
"She was so excited, like somebody going to their senior
prom," Toni says, "I think she enjoyed an aspect of it
being a little bit naughty."
They kept the eight-by-ten color print on the
living room mantel, behind a photo of Mary's late husband. Mary
joked that her children would get a kick out of discovering it
there after she died, which they did when she passed away at 97.
Angle says the exhibit has made her less
apprehensive about her own future. "I used to have the fear,
like a lot of women my age, that breast cancer may be right around
the corner," she tells the group at Lupin. "I worried
that if I lost a breast I wouldn't be able to be a nudist anymore,
which I enjoy so much. But after seeing the exhibit I said, you
know what, I could do it, no matter what happens to my body. I
appreciate that."
She plans to share her appreciation. Angle
left the talk with several copies of Bodies and Souls. "I
can't wait to take this book to work," she announces.
"Everybody at my job knows I'm a nudist I told them right
away, you know, so they'd know." She pauses and looks around.
"After all, this is just a ship that we travel through life
in, and we're going to get barnacles and whatever along the
way."
Cordelle hardly set out to empower a bunch of
women he'd never met. After graduating from then-all-male Hamilton
College in New York, he spent the summer bumming around Europe.
Back home, he put in two years as a researcher in a Harvard
biochemistry lab, followed by four years in a Ph.D program at
Brandeis University. In his downtime he became enthralled with skydiving.
"I lived to jump out of planes," he reflects. He became
an instructor and racked up more than five hundred jumps. Even
after seeing a girlfriend die because she pulled her chute too
late, he kept at it. Rapoport, perhaps fittingly, calls Cordelle
"the most tenacious person I've ever met."
In the meantime, the young man, who
previously had only dabbled in photography, began to note the
powerful, provocative photographs cropping up in newspapers and
magazines, such as Eddie Adams' Pulitzer Prize-winning image of a
Vietcong prisoner the instant before his execution. They stuck in
his head. Ultimately, Cordelle decided that to do something he
found meaningful, he might have to take a risk. So he dropped out
of grad school and used a $4,000 inheritance as down payment on a
fixer-upper farmhouse in New Hampshire. He supported himself
working construction while he brushed up on his photography
skills.
"We were brought up to think very
independently," remarks Guy Cordelle, Frank's younger
brother. "The other aspect to it is that, as we grew up, we
learned that there were things we could do to earn money to
survive, in a sense. Frank started out as a biochemist but cast
that to the wind to follow his love for photography. His carpentry
skills enabled him to meet the bills."
Cordelle found work shooting for ad agencies
and publications including Life and Newsweek. He had no niche, per
se, but managed to maintain his base in New England by taking on
all kinds of assignments. He photographed rock stars, politicians,
robots, vacuum cleaners, and rose petals. And, in what would lead
him directly to the Century Project, he spent several years
photographing disabled athletes.
Cordelle fell into it by chance. His
girlfriend at the time refereed track events at a local center for
disabled kids, and he began tagging along with his camera in tow.
He went on to shoot regional and national championships, and
exhibited the images at local galleries. When someone made the
offhand remark that, until seeing his photos, she'd never thought
of a handicapped person as a "real" person, he knew he
was on to something.
The notion of shooting nudes had been brewing
since Cordelle's post-college stint in Europe, when he had his
first brush with public nudity. The next step suddenly seemed
clear. "Those athletes were photographed as real people
which is simply the way I've attempted to photograph women,"
he says. "As opposed to somebody sitting there on a
satin-sheeted bed looking like the horniest thing in the world. I
really wanted to try to present a more honest and all-inclusive
description, if you will."
Cordelle kicked off the project in the early
1980s. Depicting women nude was entirely new to him, so he
practiced on his girlfriend, as he would on others to come.
"I think a lot of guys assume that as a matter of birthright
they know how to photograph women nude. It's like, we know how to
be good in bed, you know?" He laughs. "And both of those
statements are complete bullshit."
From the start, Cordelle found his subjects
through word of mouth. "Volunteers came to be very
crucial," he says. "I can't tell by looking at you what
happened you have to tell me. It's not a question of running
an ad in the East Bay Express asking people to pose for a hundred
bucks a pop. I wouldn't get the people I need that way."
His initial focus was on finding women of all
ages, and he didn't dig too deeply into their issues. One of the
women he shot was a girlfriend who he only later found out was
anorexic at the time. "In those days the word anorexic didn't
exist in the public lexicon," he says. "But it's a key
example of the problems that women face trying to live up to
society's standards. One of the things I've had to do, really, is
learn and grow and broaden my horizons."
A few years into it, Cordelle got up the
courage to ask a friend who had breast cancer that was visible
through her skin. It was the first time he'd photographed someone
who had "something going on" apart from age, and
suddenly, his artistic vision widened. The project promptly took
over his life. In 1994, after he'd done a few small shows, he was
invited to exhibit at Dartmouth College by a women's-studies
professor. He has since held more than fifty college exhibits,
typically staying a week at a time.
Jenny Miller, a counselor at the College of
St. Benedict in northern Minnesota, first heard about the Century
Project in the late '90s. After she joined the college staff in
2000, she was eager to bring it to her campus, but wasn't sure if
it would fly at the fairly conservative Catholic school. She laid
the groundwork carefully. "The first time I remember being
excited, but a little anxious. I thought, in the worst case
scenario, someone's going to fire me because I brought this
here," she says.
That 2003 exhibit, and another two years
later, went off without a hitch. "I actually had fewer
problems than I thought I would have," she reflects.
"The nudity is not a sexual nudity. You're not viewing women
as sexual objects. If anything, you come away from the exhibit
focused on everything but their nakedness."
Miller has integrated the Century Project
into National Eating Disorders Awareness Week at St. Benedict, as
other schools have done. "Many of the women are our students'
age, and they speak directly to issues they're struggling with: 'I
used to hate myself. Sometimes I still do. Here's how I get
by,'" Miller says. "You go in there and you think,
'Okay, I just saw everyone from a small child to a ninety
something woman completely naked, and they were okay with it.
Maybe I can be, too.'"
One of Cordelle's most provocative shots is
of a St. Benedict student who was pursuing a graduate degree in
theology. The student suggested he photograph her sitting in the
bathtub with her menstrual blood trickling toward the drain. And
that's what he did.
Miller has seen scads of strangers thank
Cordelle personally. "Frank has been hugged by people he's
never met before," she says. He takes it in stride.
"He's just so down to earth, with a delightful sense of
humor. A great conversationalist who always has the right thing to
say. Normally when men are like that, I don't trust 'em as far as
I can throw 'em, but Frank is who he is. He doesn't have any
pretenses about him, and nothing fazes him. I don't think he
realizes what impact he has really had."
He's also a cheap date. He drives to the
campus, uses a comped meal card to eat at the dining halls,
charges what Miller thinks is far less than he could, and spends
up to twelve hours a day earnestly answering questions he's heard
hundreds, if not thousands, of times. Miller already has him
booked for 2008. "I've said to Frank, 'If you ever find a
permanent home for this exhibit, I'd like it to be here.' It's
such an amazing thing that's the best way to describe it. It's
like you're walking into a room of women, not just looking at
photos. And I miss it once it's gone."
Cordelle says he can close his eyes during a
crowded show and tell which photos people are taking in by their
reactions. He strategically places boxes of Kleenex throughout,
but by the end viewers typically find themselves laughing.
"There are a lot of tough stories, but the older it gets, the
happier it gets," he says.
San Francisco folk musician Faith Petric
can't quite recall how Cordelle wound up photographing her nude
ten years ago, but she has a simple explanation for why she agreed
to it: "I guess my whole life, in a way, I've felt that if
people have a reasonable request for my help, I'll do it."
At her home in Cole Valley, the 91-year-old
peers at the photo Cordelle selected for the book. In it, she sits
on a wooden bench, legs crossed, leaning against a tall bookcase
filled with titles such as How Can I Keep from Singing? to The
Erotic Muse: American Bawdy Songs. Sunlight pushes through a lace
curtain-clad window, dappling her chest and stomach. She stares at
the viewer through large round glasses, her lips pursed, not quite
smiling. Asked what she thinks when she looks at the photo, Petric
shrugs:
"That's me." She provided an
equally terse statement to accompany her photo in the book:
"Choose your parents wisely."
This is the first time Petric has seen a
collection of Cordelle's photos, and she studies each photograph
carefully. "She's calling herself old, at 52!" she
chuckles, indicating a photo of a sturdy woman with a pixie
haircut who appears so full of aplomb that at first you don't
notice the long, neat scar that slices across the left side of her
chest where a breast used to be. "Put your hand on it,
pounding away, sending signals to the world: I am. Funny old,
freaky old, scarred old me," the woman, Kana, had written
alongside her photo. Petric reads the rest in silence. Cordelle's
postscript notes that Kana's cancer had returned and that she died
not long after the photo was taken.
Another photo shows a woman in a yogic
headstand. "How I envy her. I wish I could stand on my
head," Petric laments. "I don't do those things, though
I suppose it would be helpful." She does, however, still
write a column for Sing Out! magazine, host twenty or thirty
folkies at her house for twice-monthly sing-alongs, and perform at
several festivals a year.
When pressed, she offers a single thought on
nudity, gleaned from changing backstage and in other cramped
quarters during her two decades of touring, which began at age 56.
"If you just go ahead and calmly do it, nobody cares,"
she says. "It's when you call attention to yourself by trying
to cover up that people notice."
As for the notion that women should hide or
alter their bodies as they age, she'll have none of it. "It's
the dumbest thing, that growing old is something you're supposed
to be ashamed of!" She bats a hand through the air. "Psssff!"
For his part, Frank Cordelle seems a bit less
comfortable about getting older. Asked his age, he's
uncharacteristically coy. "Why?" he volleys back softly,
gray eyebrows arched. "Does it matter?"
It's a curious reaction for a man who says
he's completely fascinated with how you get from the first image
in his book, that of a baby girl being born, to
the last, of regal Mary. He says he doesn't feel much different
about his body than he did when he began the Century Project more
than two decades ago. He's always been pretty content with it, and
he stays in shape with long, frequent hikes in the Oakland Hills.
He calls it going to church.
A few days after his visit to Lupin Lodge,
the photographer sets off on an eight-mile trek through Redwood
Regional Park. He knows every inch of the trail how long it
takes to climb the steep hillside switchbacks, and where
to stop for water, or to find a fragrant bay
laurel tree. Cordelle moves swiftly and deftly, but seems in no
great rush. After a brief break for a granola bar and a small
piece of dark chocolate, he bends over to pick up a scrap of trash
someone left behind. He talks about those grad-school mornings
spent leaping from airplanes and of the solar house he built for
his mother, who called him up one day, at 87, and said,
"Okay, okay. Put me in your damn book." He also reveals
that it's been more difficult than he'd imagined to find community
in Oakland, and that meeting women he's interested in dating has
been particularly tough. Numerous ex-girlfriends weave in and out
of his stories, but he's never been married.
Later that afternoon, he gives a tour of his
office-slash-bedroom in the Glenview district house he shares with
an old friend, doing the odd bit of carpentry in exchange for a
break on rent. Since making the Century Project his sole
photographic endeavor, Cordelle has worked hard to make ends meet,
relying on the modest fees for his college exhibits and the
generosity of others. One New Hampshire couple regularly sends him
a check for "five figures," he says, and every so often
he'll receive a small donation from someone who's visited his Web
site, TheCenturyProject.com, where he notes the financial demands
of his work and requests assistance.
The only hint in his room of the subject
Cordelle has spent so much of his life thinking about is a stack
of August 2006 issues of N magazine, published by the Naturist
Society. His photo of 21-year-old Christy the woman who once
had the gall to wear a tank top, sans bra, to the mall graces
the cover. Hanging over a bookshelf stacked with boxes of
photographic paper and recordable CDs is a photo of a 21-year-old
Cordelle at soccer practice, his knee wrapped in a bulky white
bandage. He was intentionally injured twice in college games by
opposing players, he explains. As a result, "I went through a
long period of not trusting men."
Another photo shows Cordelle with Guy, his
brother, a few years later, a curtain of hair flitting past his
shoulders. A third snapshot is of his mother as a young woman,
sailing on a boat in New York harbor shortly after emigrating from
Germany. She died a few years after he took her photo for the
Century Project.
A wooden bar, strung with baseball caps, runs
the length of a doorless closet. "I get one at every college
I visit," he explains. On the wall above his computer he's
hung a US map dotted with red thumbtacks to mark where the project
has taken him, and a dozen or so snapshots, including two of his
old house in Bennington, New Hampshire. He lived there for thirty
years before selling it to move West, and says he misses the sauna
and studio he'd built, and the apple tree out front. Yet "I
actually felt kind of liberated when I sold it," he says.
"I couldn't fix up a house and do the Century Project at the
same time."
The photographer has no idea how many minds
and attitudes he's changed through his work. He wears a counter
around his neck at his exhibits, which he unobtrusively clicks as
people enter there've been tens of thousands, all told but
he doesn't quiz attendants on the way out. He does, however, set
out a comments box, which invariably fills with responses and
model requests. By the final day of one recent exhibit, fifty
women had volunteered to be photographed.
While exposure certainly has made Cordelle's
task easier, it's taken him a quarter century to get to this
point, and he's hoping the project doesn't take half a century to
complete. The first book contains 97 photos of women of 58
different ages. For the next book, he aims to shoot all new
photos. Besides filling in the age gaps "I call myself
the Century Project, so I've got to get to somebody with a
three-digit age," he says he hopes to find a woman who
has undergone genital mutilation, a domestic-violence victim whose
body still bears the evidence, a pregnant teen, and greater
diversity. He still expects to encounter what he calls "wild
card" subjects women whose riveting histories extend well
beyond his wish list.
The photographer has no grand expectations
that his initial book will change the world, but the added
publicity could broaden his access to potential models and help
him to finish his endeavor sooner rather than later. He can't say
what, exactly, he means by "finish," but he's not
worried. "It will tell me," he says of the project.
"I know that sounds kind of vague, but I have complete faith
in the fact that it will tell me when it's done."
Bodies and Souls certainly won't make
Cordelle rich. It isn't the sort of book most people would leave
on their coffee table. And while his work may have touched the
lives of countless viewers, he's still a bachelor living in a
rented room at age 63. During his Lupin Lodge visit, when someone
questioned why he doesn't undertake a male version of the project,
Cordelle replied candidly: "There's a point at which I need
to do something different and get a life."
His response was serious. Yet perhaps if
Cordelle one day reaches the century mark himself, he will look
back and realize that, sure enough, he's had a life all along. In
fact, he has changed the course of history for at least two
people: women who divulged to him that they were suicidal before
seeing his exhibit, that it literally saved their lives. It's
something he frequently reflects upon, even as he wonders when
he'll again have a house of his own, and maybe even a family
beyond the women he's photographed, whom he's come to think of as
just that. He knows it might have been wise to put the project on
hold for a few years here and there to hustle for high-paying
work, but he doesn't regret the path he's taken. "There have
been so many strong responses along the way that I just could not
have walked away."
Frank Cordelle traded a steady paycheck for
what might have been an ordinary, if creative, career. Nearly four
decades later, only he remains to be convinced that he does have a
life. And that it's an extraordinary one.